Somewhere You Are...

Somewhere you are but I may never find you...

Midst the sea of nameless faces, I search for that familiar face which haunts my dreams and reveries...a face that's etched within my mind...a face that would not leave my heart...I would gaze deeply in a stranger's eyes...hoping that I would find within the reflection of my soul...and as each intimate stranger touch my life I pray that it would be the last...

In my endless quest and aimless wanderings, somewhere you are...

But I may never find you...

Today I sat and watched the waves

And watched the birds that flew

Today I sat and thought of life

And thought of life with you

Today I sat and thought of love

And thought of love for you

Today I sat and looked about

And looked about for you

Today I walked and walked about

I walked in search of you

Today I walked in search of love

In search of a dream come true

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Walk Away...

i imagine what it would be like to see you once again...

i wonder if you'd still look at me with some pain in your eyes...while i try hard to keep my feelings in disguise...maybe you'd say something funny just to break the ice...and maybe for a second i would be feigning surprise...

maybe we'd both fake a smile and say the appropriate lines...pretend everything is fine just like the good old times...

"hello sweetie, not happy to see me?"...you'll say as you grab me in a warm tight hug...

i'll probably hold on trying not to let go too soon..."it's good to see you, it's been quite a while"...

"so how have you been?...you changed a great deal!"...would i hear the same hint of concern?...

"i'm tired but i'm ok...but hey! you're looking fine"...

"life is good...i finally got my peace of mind"...

and that's when it will hit that you're over me...and all that are left now are bits of memories...i'll step back trying not to make it worse by saying another word...

"i have to go, maybe we should catch up another time"...at this point, i can't stop the tears running down my cheeks...i'll stand rooted to the spot...too shocked to move and falling apart...

"goodbye sweetie"...then you'll turn your back...

we'll both walk away...we'll try to spare each other pain...we'll try not to feel...pretend this is not real...until finally, silence moves in to save us from this hell...

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My Miracle Find...

my heart lets out a silent scream...trying to reach you...it's you and me in my mind lately...wish i don't have to think about it, any more than i have to...it's out of my control, though...you invade my thoughts at my worst times...flashes of things, things we talked about...i don't cry about it, far from it...i don't lie in bed and stare at the ceiling and ask it why...i don't ask questions...well, not anymore...but i think about it...i think about you...

i think of those times i shared my thoughts with you...with you who actually know what i mean...who read my mind and finish my phrases before i even have the chance to blurt them out...you don't find the things i say intriguing or strange...you feel them as i do...and most of all, more than anything, you understand and accept me the way i am...

in your most strange way, you taught me not to waste life...that no matter how bad things get, it isn't worth it...you made me see that there's still beauty left in places...that i just have to turn my head another angle to see it...sometimes, it's shattered like broken glass, but you showed me how to arrange it like a puzzle for it to make sense...for the picture to become clear...

even if i never hear your voice when i talk to you as i sit alone in my room, i still feel your lingering presence...you're always there in the deep recesses of my mind...and when the world is fast asleep, i am never alone...for you are always with me, my miracle find...always...

When I feel like the world's gone mad

And I need you so bad

But I don't know where you are

I cry these tears

On our own we've been so far

We've sworn at the moon

And we've counted a million stars

My love's still true

Friends have come and gone

Some have left me alone

But I've stared at these walls before

And they've made me blue

All along in my heart I've known

There's one thing in my life

That still rings true

I can count on you

Count on you to be there

No questions in the air

No asking why or where

No looking back

Count on you every time

To ease my worried mind

You'll forever be important to me

My miracle find

If I had to choose one place

To spend the rest of my days

Anywhere will do

Long as it's close to you

Now oh now

We've travelled so far

Yet I'm right back where you are

Just me and you

Now and forever more

As the years go by

I'm beginning to see that I

Can count on you

~ Count on You by Tommy Shaw ~

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To Love Again...

why do we love?...it's reassuring yet scary to think that we are ready to do everything...that we are willing to give everything for love...knowing it may not last...and then, maybe we have to hold on to pain...so we can let go...and start all over again...for that is the point of living...to know and feel that you loved...and that you've been loved...

everyone lost someone they loved...may it be to death or circumstances...everyone gets hurt...and the world has no obligation to protect us from pain...not because we are good...or kind-hearted...that we are going to be spared from hurts...or from being left behind or betrayed...it doesn't work that way...but still we choose to love again...you choose it over and over again...because if you don't it's as if you choose not to live...

so my journey continues...i will find you...you who have the courage to love again in spite of the hurts...you who are ready to risk everything...you who will give me the strength to fall in love again...you who understand what is in my heart...i will find you...even if there is no assurance that our story will end with "I LOVE YOU"...

There's a saying old, says that love is blind

Still we're often told, "seek and ye shall find"

So I'm going to seek a certain lad I've had in mind

Looking everywhere, haven't found him yet

He's the big affair I cannot forget

Only man I ever think of with regret

I'd like to add his initial to my monogram

Tell me, where is the shepherd for this lost lamb?

There's a somebody I'm longing to see

I hope that he, turns out to be

Someone who'll watch over me

I'm a little lamb who's lost in the wood

I know I could, always be good

To one who'll watch over me

Although he may not be the man some

Girls think of as handsome

To my heart he carries the key

Won't you tell him please to put on some speed

Follow my lead, oh, how I need

Someone to watch over me

Someone to watch over me

~ Someone to Watch Over Me by Ella Fitzgerald ~

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Perfect Strangers...

it's amazing how a person can spill the deepest feelings...the innermost thoughts...the darkest secrets with someone...how one can share the "true self" with another person...i used to wonder...can anyone really reveal one's self completely to any person?...bare one's soul?...and by doing so set one's self free...i realized one big thing...you can be yourself...however weird it may be...in front of a stranger...and pour out everything you always wanted to scream out but never had the guts nor the chance to...and it's so wonderful to see the reflection of yourself in someone else's eyes...in the eyes of this perfect stranger...

An afternoon of sad affairs

Shared in the hope of mending broken dreams

The constant struggle after simple pleasures

Finds us perfect strangers you and I

You know I hate to see you cry

And through the tears that fall like winter rain

You say you're tired of merely just surviving

We've so much in common that we're

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Perfect strangers singing perfectly in tune

From separate corners of the room

Held together by our hunger to get by

Perfect strangers you and I

Let's make a toast to no regrets

Wet down the painful sting of sweet love lost

Let evening find us whispering in our whiskey

Come and sit beside me for a while

You know I love to see you smile

And if perhaps you're only passing through

At least we tried to reach an understanding

And for just one moment we were

Perfect strangers singing perfectly in tune

From separate corners of the room

Held together by our hunger to get by

Perfect strangers you and I

~ Perfect Strangers by Neil Sedaka ~

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Rescue Me...

i'm sitting here alone, staring into the darkness...i can hear the heartbeat hammering against my chest...i can feel the blood racing through my veins...they are as tangible as my pain...maybe if i cry myself long enough to sleep, i will get tired and blackout into a dreamless stupor...no more dreams...no more enticing dreams which turn into horrible nightmare...the most cruel nightmare which is "reality"...i tried to run away but it sought me out...it chased away all my wondrous fantasies...

i'm sitting here alone and helpless...crying out for you...

my world keeps on spinning...come and help me...

i'm drowning in my tears...save me...

i'm trapped in my pain...rescue me...

Rescue me from the mire

Whisper words of desire

Rescue me - darling rescue me

With your arms open wide

Want you here by my side

Come to me - darling rescue me

When this world's closing in

There's no need to pretend

Set me free - darling rescue me

I don't wanna let you go

So I'm standing in your way

I never needed anyone 

Like I'm needing you today

Do I have to say the words?

Do I have to tell the truth?

Do I have to shout it out?

Do I have to say a prayer?

Must I prove to you 

How good we are together?

Do I have to say the words?

Rescue me from despair

Tell me you will be there

Help me please - darling rescue me

Every dream that we share

Every cross that we bear

Can't you see - darling rescue me

~ Do I Have To Say The Words by Bryan Adams ~

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Impassioned...

all emotions running loose and WILD

like a TEMPEST on a free-spirited ride

a raging wildfire on a rampage SPREE

a FEVERED soul in a passionate frenzy

seeking respite from the lull of tranquility

from the chill of PASSIVE serenity

ECHOES of muted screams resonated

drowning the SILENCE inside my head

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A Bit of My Soul...

Nestled in an oversized-sofa, I was staring at the glass of pink guava juice in my hand as i make small talks with a friend. A hint of moving color made me look up and my gaze followed you as you sit at a table across ours.

Our eyes found each other's gaze, locked on a moment too long. I watched the movement of your hand as you bring the cup of coffee to your lips. There is something about your eyes, about your smile, about you.

I stood by the counter and I felt you standing behind me a little closer than would be normal. I felt a tingling warmth creeping within me. I was almost sure you can hear the thumping of my heart. My nostrils flared unwittingly, catching the primal clues of our bodies.

We never see each other again. But a bit of my soul is trapped in that coffee shop forever.

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Hickey...Anyone?...

Want to mark someone?...Just for fun or to warn others to stay away ...Give a hickey, it's free!...

Pick the spot...The key to giving a hickey is placement...The neck is the best place, but the upper chest area also works...

Kiss ...You don't have to let your mate know that you are going to give a hickey if you don't want resistance...Kiss your partner lightly moving along their body to deter any suspicion...

Apply pressure...Lock on the area that you want to place the hickey and start to lick the area...Then, apply light pressure...This will prepare the skin for the hickey while keeping your mate from knowing what is about to happen...

Suck ...Be careful not to draw attention to what you are doing right away...Start by lightly sucking on the target area with light licking and kissing in between sucking...Then slowly increase the sucking action...A vacuum needs to form from your mouth and the skin for a hickey to form...

Inspect the hickey...When you feel that you have left a mark look at the area...It should be red...If the mark is not dark enough, suck and apply pressure on the same area...When done properly a hickey will stay on the skin for a few days...

Be playful...have fun!...

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C'mon Baby Light My Fire...

I feel your breath quicken, pulse starts to race,
feel your body shaking, as I touch your face.
Work my way slowly down the back of your neck,
two bodies melting, emotional train wreck.

Begging for pleasure, I take my time,
pulling you closer, body next to mine.
Biting so gently, your p*nis starts to stiffen,
sweat on your skin, in the moonlight glistens.

As I lick my way down your quivering belly,
body tingles all over, legs turn to jelly.
Now I kiss lower, to your hard secret place,
sucking your juices, enjoying the taste

Now we're both aching, all senses alive,
I take you inside me, our bodies start to writhe.
I feel your intenseness, throbbing inside.
all thoughts are stirring, nothing to hide,

Grinding with lust, wanting it more,
you explode inside me, we've opened the door.
Unchained passion, pushing us closer,
shaking the walls, knocking things over.

Collapse in each other, embrace not broken,
both breathing heavily, not a word spoken.
The looks on our faces, ecstasy found,
hold on, sweet lover, I'm going back down.

Instead you turn me slowly, entering from behind,
feels so delicious, we both lose our minds.
Grind even harder, we've come to the end,
both smile sexily, Let's do it again.

~ anonymous ~

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