If You Want to Love Me...

if you want to love me...

don't give me empty words and promises...they are not what i need...if you want to give me your love, then do so completely...do not lend but a part of yourself whenever time permits...i need love which primes for deeper connection...i want all of your affection...not what is left from past affairs...not that which you give when you please...i want a love that is whole...that which emanates from the soul...i want someone who is factually true...with a kind of love happily exposed...not concealed nor supposed...i haven't time to play hide and seek...nor to decipher what one refuses to speak...i can't have one who is not sure...one who lives on the edge and is obscure...i need a lover who is willing to give each facet of life he lives...if you can love me like this, i'll give back endless bliss...i will treat you like royalty in return for your loyalty...each day will begin and the night will end with more pleasure than you can comprehend...for without the weight of worry or fear, my passion flows like a river so crystal clear...love me with the depths of you...and i will give the kind of love such as you never knew...together, we can share the joy of life in all ways...to last for the rest of our remaining days...

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Rescue Me...

i'm sitting here alone, staring into the darkness...i can hear the heartbeat hammering against my chest...i can feel the blood racing through my veins...they are as tangible as my pain...maybe if i cry myself long enough to sleep, i will get tired and blackout into a dreamless stupor...no more dreams...no more enticing dreams which turn into horrible nightmare...the most cruel nightmare which is "reality"...i tried to run away but it sought me out...it chased away all my wondrous fantasies...

i'm sitting here alone and helpless...crying out for you...

my world keeps on spinning...come and help me...

i'm drowning in my tears...save me...

i'm trapped in my pain...rescue me...

Rescue me from the mire

Whisper words of desire

Rescue me - darling rescue me

With your arms open wide

Want you here by my side

Come to me - darling rescue me

When this world's closing in

There's no need to pretend

Set me free - darling rescue me

I don't wanna let you go

So I'm standing in your way

I never needed anyone 

Like I'm needing you today

Do I have to say the words?

Do I have to tell the truth?

Do I have to shout it out?

Do I have to say a prayer?

Must I prove to you 

How good we are together?

Do I have to say the words?

Rescue me from despair

Tell me you will be there

Help me please - darling rescue me

Every dream that we share

Every cross that we bear

Can't you see - darling rescue me

~ Do I Have To Say The Words by Bryan Adams ~

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WANTED: Soulmate...

we often wonder if we'll ever meet our soulmates...or if the one we are with right now is the one meant for us...we keep on believing...we keep on searching for that twin soul...it almost becomes magical...that journey in finding our soulmates seems like a blanket of overwhelming adventure...the thought seems mysterious but tugs inspiringly at the heartstrings...

in those moments of yearning and longing, we ache to find that special someone...that someone who spells happiness...who can fill up our loneliness...who can end up our uncertainties...the one that complements us rather than completes us...

the question is: in this not so perfect world, how do we find our soulmate when we have no place to start and we have no hint at whom to look for?...are they also looking for us?...

there must be signs when we finally meet our soulmate, like a fairy tale coming alive...there would be sparks flying...butterflies in the stomach...stuttered sentences...ease of communication...physical attractions...love-at-first-sights...answered prayers...love remembered from dreams...

hmmmmm...a soulmate connection...

after some time of expedition...i think i'll settle for a chatmate...well, for a while...

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Acceptance and Accountability...

"God, grant me the serenity to accept 

the things I cannot change;

The courage to change the things I can,

And the wisdom to know the difference."

We are not perfect. In fact, most of us are damaged goods. We were raised by imperfect parents in an imperfect world. We were educated by flawed teachers and we mingled with fallible peers. We went through life with so much hurts and pains that the trauma is holding us back, preventing us from living the life we are dreaming of. We know we cannot change the past and the only way we can move on is to accept it and work with what we have. We should stop blaming others and our circumstances for what we have become. Blame would not advance us. We cannot control others or events. We can only control our own thoughts and actions. So we should learn to accept the things we cannot change and take responsibility for the choices we make.

"You are the person who has to decide.

Whether you’ll do it or toss it aside;

You are the person who makes up your mind.

Whether you’ll lead or will linger behind.

Whether you’ll try for the goal that’s afar.

Or just be contented to stay where you are."

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Live Well...

In life, there are two choices: to move forward or to stagnate. If you want to move forward, you have to turn your back from the past and face your present and future with your eyes wide open. You do not leave your other foot stuck in the past. If you do you are immobilized and your failures will hold you back. You are left to cope with “what ifs”, “should haves” and a pile of regrets. Nothing changes and when you feel this way, you start to believe that nothing will change.

If you sincerely want to change, you drop the anger, the pain, the disappointments and the sad experiences behind you. It is hard to leave the past. It is difficult to forgive and forget the people who may have hurt you, but you have to do for your own peace of mind. If you truly want to be free, you mentally close the door of the past firmly behind you and open another door to freedom.

When you leave your past behind, you don’t carry over into your present life a mental chart of the things or actions other people did to you. You do not spend three hours a day wringing your hands and trying to understand why unfortunate incident happened. You do not moan over the unfair judgment passed to you. What you do, if you want to get positively even, is to make your life so successful that your enemies will wonder how you recovered so fast! As one writer says, "Living well is the best revenge."

Our life is determined by the choices we make. We make or break our lives. Sometimes we come out unscathed. Usually, we don’t. Now, it’s up to mend our torn selves and put them back into pieces. Only when this is done can we say that we are free from the negative, misleading past.

“LIFE CAN ONLY BE UNDERSTOOD BACKWARD, BUT IT MUST BE LIVED FORWARD.”

~ i found this online a long time ago...it's very inspiring and worth reflecting on...i hope it will give you some nuggets of wisdom...~

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Impassioned...

all emotions running loose and WILD

like a TEMPEST on a free-spirited ride

a raging wildfire on a rampage SPREE

a FEVERED soul in a passionate frenzy

seeking respite from the lull of tranquility

from the chill of PASSIVE serenity

ECHOES of muted screams resonated

drowning the SILENCE inside my head

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Back To My World...

yes, I am back...I haven't really left you...I have been around, watching you...you are the reason why I still linger...you are a part of my world...I keep you there, holding you in a sweet embrace...I heard you calling out from your world...across time and space where meaning truly exists...I reached out to touch your aura...willing the vibes to flow through the realm of dreams into the galaxies beyond...I snatched up a part of your pain...feeding your heart with unwavering faith...infusing your soul with a fresh dose of hope...as always I do and will..from a distance yet not...like a never-ending shower of sparks...lifting your energized soul from the dark that bound you down...hold on tight, don't let go...use your triumphs and defeats to find your answers...carry on...I will never leave you...I'm holding you safe in my heart...be free...

Hush now, don't cry

Wipe away the teardrop from your eye

You're lying safe in bed

It was all a bad dream

Spinning in your head

Your mind tricked you to feel the pain

Of someone close to you leaving the game of life

So here it is, another chance

Wide awake you face the day

Your dream is over...or has it just begun?

There's a place I like to hide

A doorway that I run to in the night

Relax child, you were there

But only didn't realize it and you were scared

It's a place where you will learn

To face your fears, retrace the tears

And ride the whims of your mind

Commanding in another world

Suddenly, you hear and see

This magic new dimension

Chorus:

I will be watching over you

I am gonna help you see it through

I will protect you in the night

I am smiling next to you...in silent lucidity

If you open your mind for me

You won't rely on open eyes to see

The walls you built within

Come tumbling down, and a new world will begin

Living twice at once you learn

You're safe from pain in the dream domain

A soul set free to fly

A round trip journey in your head

Master of illusion, can you realize

Your dreams alive, you can be the guide but...

~ Silent Lucidity by Queensryche ~

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