i imagine what it would be like to see you once again...
i wonder if you'd still look at me with some pain in your eyes...while i try hard to keep my feelings in disguise...maybe you'd say something funny just to break the ice...and maybe for a second i would be feigning surprise...
maybe we'd both fake a smile and say the appropriate lines...pretend everything is fine just like the good old times...
"hello sweetie, not happy to see me?"...you'll say as you grab me in a warm tight hug...
i'll probably hold on trying not to let go too soon..."it's good to see you, it's been quite a while"...
"so how have you been?...you changed a great deal!"...would i hear the same hint of concern?...
"i'm tired but i'm ok...but hey! you're looking fine"...
"life is good...i finally got my peace of mind"...
and that's when it will hit that you're over me...and all that are left now are bits of memories...i'll step back trying not to make it worse by saying another word...
"i have to go, maybe we should catch up another time"...at this point, i can't stop the tears running down my cheeks...i'll stand rooted to the spot...too shocked to move and falling apart...
"goodbye sweetie"...then you'll turn your back...
we'll both walk away...we'll try to spare each other pain...we'll try not to feel...pretend this is not real...until finally, silence moves in to save us from this hell...
